To be honest, I never really stopped dreaming about my "precious" future, even though I know that most of the dreams won´t come true.
I can remember that when I was little I wanted to be a writer. That was in times I didn´t even know what writing was all about and I wasn´t able to write/come up with story. But I wished to be one and as stubborn as I was (well, still am), I haven´t given up so far. But what I have realized is that being an author isn´t easy. Not at all. And in this world where money matters the most... It sucks. You´re dependant on the reader´s money- that is just how it goes.
So I have given up on being a writer as a profession. Of course, I still somehow dream that one beautiful day my own book will be released... but somehow this seems like unreal future than a possible present.
Few years ago, I saw one episode of this serie called "Grey´s Anatomy". As the time went by, I started to love it. And becoming a surgeon have became a great idea in my head. Since that, I´m (most of the time) pretty sure I am going to study medicine. I love it- the blood, the function of human body, the feeling that I can help people. Okay, I hate hospitals- but working in one is not the same as being a patient, is it? And some hospitals are really nice; well, they do not stink as most of them and are actually clean. Like those one in Switzerland or Austria (yeah, private ones). But really, I know it is not about hospitals or whatever. I mean, I´d also love to travel and help with medical treatment in countries where it is needed.
What was I talking about? Oh yeah. So medicine. One of the most difficult schools. But I want it-dream about it-need it. It´s weird how it has became my obsession. I do love biology-but pretty much dislike chemistry. Not even talking about physics. But I do not care- I know that I am able to do everything for that. And sometimes when I hear people who are studying medicine talking about their school, I am confused. And scared. And everything else.
I am more artistic, but got no talent. And without talent... I don´t know, but what can I do? I love writing, taking pictures, drawing and listening to music. But I can´t play any actual instrument, can´t sing. So life´s weird. Like it is most of the time. And I also love travelling but it´s hard to do that without any money (I mean, safely- of course, I can hitchhike... but that doesn´t sound good to me)... Well, everything´s a future- but future´s also the next day. I kinda have this feeling that everytime I wake up, there´s today, but no promised tomorrow. Whatever. :)
I made a blood test today. Lol. As I said, love it.
Good night
I can remember that when I was little I wanted to be a writer. That was in times I didn´t even know what writing was all about and I wasn´t able to write/come up with story. But I wished to be one and as stubborn as I was (well, still am), I haven´t given up so far. But what I have realized is that being an author isn´t easy. Not at all. And in this world where money matters the most... It sucks. You´re dependant on the reader´s money- that is just how it goes.
So I have given up on being a writer as a profession. Of course, I still somehow dream that one beautiful day my own book will be released... but somehow this seems like unreal future than a possible present.
Few years ago, I saw one episode of this serie called "Grey´s Anatomy". As the time went by, I started to love it. And becoming a surgeon have became a great idea in my head. Since that, I´m (most of the time) pretty sure I am going to study medicine. I love it- the blood, the function of human body, the feeling that I can help people. Okay, I hate hospitals- but working in one is not the same as being a patient, is it? And some hospitals are really nice; well, they do not stink as most of them and are actually clean. Like those one in Switzerland or Austria (yeah, private ones). But really, I know it is not about hospitals or whatever. I mean, I´d also love to travel and help with medical treatment in countries where it is needed.
What was I talking about? Oh yeah. So medicine. One of the most difficult schools. But I want it-dream about it-need it. It´s weird how it has became my obsession. I do love biology-but pretty much dislike chemistry. Not even talking about physics. But I do not care- I know that I am able to do everything for that. And sometimes when I hear people who are studying medicine talking about their school, I am confused. And scared. And everything else.
I am more artistic, but got no talent. And without talent... I don´t know, but what can I do? I love writing, taking pictures, drawing and listening to music. But I can´t play any actual instrument, can´t sing. So life´s weird. Like it is most of the time. And I also love travelling but it´s hard to do that without any money (I mean, safely- of course, I can hitchhike... but that doesn´t sound good to me)... Well, everything´s a future- but future´s also the next day. I kinda have this feeling that everytime I wake up, there´s today, but no promised tomorrow. Whatever. :)
I made a blood test today. Lol. As I said, love it.
Good night
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