Future.. It seems so unreal.

Statistically, the feeling of "alienation" in the teenage years is quite normal and common. Is it really so? I am a teenager and I sometimes feel like I am living on a wrong planet. Where is my spaceship and when can I go back to my home planet? Do I only need to find myself, my own happy little place in this world, no matter how far it can be? May be. Maybe. I mean, I love my family, my friends, my schoolmates. It is just that sometimes I do not get what they are saying and trying to convince me about their own truth, even though in my opinion the truth is on my side and my idea is basically better and more suitable for me. Or when I like something (e.g. a TV serie of which I am a great fan) and I want to talk about it with my beloved ones, but the only thing I get is a confused or amused stare. What, for crying out loud, is bad about being obsessed with a TV serie? I know, I know. For me it is a nice way how to relax and get a little closer to a "perfect" world, so to say. The best TV shows are medical- or forensic-oriented. And, aside from that, I like to watch and learn something about the acting profession. Huh, it'd so cool if I could actually act. I would really love that. Sadly, I am not keen on doing the acting career here in my country. Which means- no acting whatsoever.
And what do I even want to do in the future? Who knows. I'd love to work on a TV serie- yeah, I don't have the slightest clue what or where, but, well, I think I could be a good scriptwriter... That is my dream job. The actual job I am preparing for- well, more exactly university, is medicine- which has been my dream since I was 10 or so, but of which I am not so sure anymore. I mean, what's with all that chemistry? Gosh, do I really have to know what does every single element do or do not? Sometimes it just feels like I've been tossed in the water and I keep drowning, willing yet unable to scream out loud for help.
But, first and foremost, I want to study ABROAD. In England, Holland or USA, I don't mind. It doesn't seem real, though... But I am not giving up on that opportunity. Not yet. Good thing I'm strong-minded, in most things. (Bad thing everything's about money...)